I’ve always struggled with the need to “do everything”.
Whenever I need to do something I need to “do everything”.
What does that mean?
Whenever I need to learn, accomplish, hang out, chat, argue, sleep, write, exercise, drink water and so on..I have to “DO IT” as opposed to “do it” or “do some of it”.
I then find myself at a cross roads. I have to be patient and accept that I can’t “DO IT” and continue working or drop the entire endeavor of doing to just move on to my next interest, task, fleeting thought.
There is a third more sinister and terrifying path I can take which is “doing it badly”. Oh man do I hate this. And this path is brutal. This path hurts you, not in the short term, but in the long winding path of life. You realize 5 years, 65 days, 22 hours, I minute and 20 seconds later man I really shouldn’t have “done it badly”. And that’s the worst, the regret of “doing it badly” is the worst thing a person can experience.
Or so it seems.
The flipside.
The reality is its all an iteration. You’re learning from “doing it badly”. If you don’t “do it badly” you’ll never get to “DOING IT” or even “do it”. You gotta start somewhere.
Just like most things in life, frustratingly, its about balance.
Balance your need to win, with the humility to learn from your losses.
Balance your need to win NOW, with the vision to win THEN.
And, Balance your hesitation to start, with the momentum to get going.
So that’s what this blog is about. It’s about balancing my need to “DO IT” with my fear of “doing it badly”. Through this blog I want to start putting myself out there, really understand my thoughts, learn some valuable things from strangers on the internet. And I’m going to “do it badly”.
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